Just thinking about Kim

I've just turned 35 this past week. I just came back from Victoria where I celebrated my birthday dinner with 2 friends, my 2 sons and my husband in Victoria.

It got me thinking about the last time I was in Victoria and had a few drinks with Sean and Kim. I beleive in truth it was the last time I saw him.

I am also thinking about Wendy right now, and wanted to appeal to anybody reading to call, send good thoughts, prayers or whatever your sense of the universe suggests to give her strength.

I think right now about the fact that if I had not gone out that night with Sean and Kim to go bar-hopping in Victoria, I would never have met my son's father. And therefor, my son Josh, would never have been born.

So Kim, wherever you are, thank you for that blessing first off.

Secondly - your death shook up a lot of people. And as believed in our culture there's never a situation that does not have some good come out of it. I believe my father, your uncle has in the past few years placed a much higher premium on spending time with me, and trying harder to ... I don't know what the word is - but develop a better relationship with me. So that's the second blessing that you conferred on me.

Lastly, to be brutal, as I come upon my 35th birthday, and I find myself overwhelmed with it - and overall with things, I think about your choice, and I guess the third blessing you gave me was the knowledge that while what might have made life impossible for you to see a way out -- I have to fight - even if it means giving up evrerything in my life, to hold onto life. Because Life is precious and the world was a better place when there was a Kim Riordon in it, and it's a worse place without it.. So thank you for opening my eyes - "Jimmy Stewart Style in ITS A WONDERFUL LIFE" to always remember these lessons you left behind for those of us left beihind.

You are not forgotten Kim.
You are loved.
You always will be.

Your Cousin

Meaghan